Friday, July 30, 2010
The third day
i woke up today straining at the chastity device again. i'm beginning to see what Mistress meant when She said it would be difficult and have psychological effects too. Still, i am honored and proud to be in Her control like this. i'm just starting to get a glimpse of how this is going to change my life, but at the same time i'm also getting a glimpse of how much being in the control of the perfect Mistress is what i've wanted for so long.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Day 2
It's now the second day since i was put into chastity by my Mistress Katya, and it has been an incredible experience, even in this short time.
The first day i hardly noticed. The particular device Mistress chose is made of silicone rubber and is quite comfortable. The only real effect on my life on the first day was the realization that i now had to sit to pee. Psychologically, i found that intriguing, especially since it is a palpable reminder of the fact that i am no longer in control of my own body. The reminders throughout the day that Mistress Katya now has control of me, even when She and i are not together, are amazing.
The second day started in an even more interesting way. Clearly, my body wanted to have a morning erection. The device prevents that, of course. But not in a painful way. It simply felt like pressure against my cock and balls, which although not pleasant, was also not painful per se. Again, it was a palpable reminder of who controls my body now.
The first day i hardly noticed. The particular device Mistress chose is made of silicone rubber and is quite comfortable. The only real effect on my life on the first day was the realization that i now had to sit to pee. Psychologically, i found that intriguing, especially since it is a palpable reminder of the fact that i am no longer in control of my own body. The reminders throughout the day that Mistress Katya now has control of me, even when She and i are not together, are amazing.
The second day started in an even more interesting way. Clearly, my body wanted to have a morning erection. The device prevents that, of course. But not in a painful way. It simply felt like pressure against my cock and balls, which although not pleasant, was also not painful per se. Again, it was a palpable reminder of who controls my body now.
The beginning
Hello, and welcome.
This journal is to record and share my experiences while becoming more and more the completely owned slave of Mistress Katya.
After a few brief emails with Mistress Katya, and an introductory meeting, i knew i had found the Mistress i would give myself to, and offer to become Her slave, in every way. To me, this meant being trained by Her, in any way She saw fit. My needs and wants were of no consequence, i was to become Her slave for Her to use as She wanted, when She wanted, for whatever purposes She wanted. If Mistress Katya was in a bad mood and needed to beat someone, i would be there. If She was in a good mood and simply felt like tormenting a slave, i would be there. For whatever She wanted or needed, i would be there.
In O/our first training session, Mistress Katya made it quite clear what She expected of me, and honestly, i was on cloud 9. Mistress is hypnotic, beautiful beyond description, frighteningly intelligent, intuitive almost to the point of being a mind-reader, and, although She wants what She wants, and will have it, is also caring.
She began to train me in bondage and corporal punishment that first day, using floggers, whips, and canes on me. Some of the implements were very painful, but i was determined to take everything Mistress Katya wished me to take and not to use a safeword. i already felt that it would devastate me to disappoint Her. i think She was pleased with my honest desire to serve and please Her. i was honored to wear Her marks (mainly from the cane and singletail) that lasted for about a day after the session.
After the session, Mistress instructed me via email to look at a particular chastity device, measure myself according to the manufacturer's instructions, and order one. Of course, the thought of real chastity with someone holding the keys was a prospect that made me nervous, but at the same time, i trusted Mistress Katya implicitly, and knew that i wanted to deepen Her control over me. Of course i ordered the device. How could i not?
The next time W/we met, it was more of a sensual session, with Mistress introducing me to a few new things: latex worship (for those of you who are familiar with Mistress Katya, you know that latex is Her great love), bondage, nipple clamps, and Her violet wand. Although i wasn't able to be as stoic as She would have liked, i was again determined to endure anything She wanted me to, and i hope that She was pleased with me.
At the end of the session, it was time for Her control over me to grow so much deeper, and for me to be under Her lock and key permanently. The chastity device went on (with a little difficulty, but Mistress and i managed to get it finally), and once She put the lock onto it, She looked me in the eye and asked if i really wanted this and was really ready for it. Of course i told Her yes. i couldn't have wanted it any more, and couldn't have been more ready for it. i knew i had found the perfect Mistress for me.
The look in Mistress Katya's eyes and the smile that came across Her face as She snapped the lock closed was so amazing, it made me a little weak in the knees.
This journal is to record and share my experiences while becoming more and more the completely owned slave of Mistress Katya.
After a few brief emails with Mistress Katya, and an introductory meeting, i knew i had found the Mistress i would give myself to, and offer to become Her slave, in every way. To me, this meant being trained by Her, in any way She saw fit. My needs and wants were of no consequence, i was to become Her slave for Her to use as She wanted, when She wanted, for whatever purposes She wanted. If Mistress Katya was in a bad mood and needed to beat someone, i would be there. If She was in a good mood and simply felt like tormenting a slave, i would be there. For whatever She wanted or needed, i would be there.
In O/our first training session, Mistress Katya made it quite clear what She expected of me, and honestly, i was on cloud 9. Mistress is hypnotic, beautiful beyond description, frighteningly intelligent, intuitive almost to the point of being a mind-reader, and, although She wants what She wants, and will have it, is also caring.
She began to train me in bondage and corporal punishment that first day, using floggers, whips, and canes on me. Some of the implements were very painful, but i was determined to take everything Mistress Katya wished me to take and not to use a safeword. i already felt that it would devastate me to disappoint Her. i think She was pleased with my honest desire to serve and please Her. i was honored to wear Her marks (mainly from the cane and singletail) that lasted for about a day after the session.
After the session, Mistress instructed me via email to look at a particular chastity device, measure myself according to the manufacturer's instructions, and order one. Of course, the thought of real chastity with someone holding the keys was a prospect that made me nervous, but at the same time, i trusted Mistress Katya implicitly, and knew that i wanted to deepen Her control over me. Of course i ordered the device. How could i not?
The next time W/we met, it was more of a sensual session, with Mistress introducing me to a few new things: latex worship (for those of you who are familiar with Mistress Katya, you know that latex is Her great love), bondage, nipple clamps, and Her violet wand. Although i wasn't able to be as stoic as She would have liked, i was again determined to endure anything She wanted me to, and i hope that She was pleased with me.
At the end of the session, it was time for Her control over me to grow so much deeper, and for me to be under Her lock and key permanently. The chastity device went on (with a little difficulty, but Mistress and i managed to get it finally), and once She put the lock onto it, She looked me in the eye and asked if i really wanted this and was really ready for it. Of course i told Her yes. i couldn't have wanted it any more, and couldn't have been more ready for it. i knew i had found the perfect Mistress for me.
The look in Mistress Katya's eyes and the smile that came across Her face as She snapped the lock closed was so amazing, it made me a little weak in the knees.
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