Well, tonight was interesting.  i just spent the last 5 hours at my company's holiday party, and spent all of it with Mistress Katya on my mind.  i can't say that it's unusual, Mistress has been on my mind pretty much all the time for the last few days.  It's been a few days of less than normal amounts of sleep, as the effects of chastity have really kicked in lately.  As i noticed last time, when i am scheduled to see Mistress and then it is postponed, the chastity really kicks into overdrive.  This time i think i was able to handle myself better while on the phone with Mistress, but of course here i am telling Her through this journal that it's gotten really difficult since Thursday.  Having trouble falling asleep, tossing and turning, and waking up early, and straining against the device.  Let me say - this thing has gotten quite a workout and some heavy testing over the last 6 months and it has held up!

Here it is almost 1am and i am unable to fall asleep yet again.  Mistress' standing order when that happens is to write here, so i am. 

i continue to long to be at Her feet again, and the thoughts of whipping, caning, and needles have continued, and continued to give me chills - in the best possible way.  i am having a difficult time waiting for Mistress to take me to the next level, beyond what i've experienced in these areas.  i know it's going to be painful, but i also know it's going to be wonderful.