So, today, things are a little worse.  Last night, Mistress Katya and i scheduled to see each other on Thursday, and today, i am having quite a difficult time, both straining against my device (one would think that by now, my body and mind would have accepted the fact that my erections, pleasure, and release no longer belong to me), but also in the fact that Mistress is on my mind all the time.

Mistress has recently mentioned some areas She wishes to explore that are more in the sadistic arena, and i find myself really wanting to go there.  It's been a while since She has tailored one of O/our sessions around pain, and i must admit that the thought of Her cane, Her whips, and Her floggers have me craving them.  There has also been talk of sounds and needles...neither of which i have experienced before but both of which i am finding extremely intriguing...especially the thought of seeing the pleasure in Mistress Katya's face as She inflicts them on me.  i never thought i'd be craving pain, but Her way of administering it to me makes it a transcendental experience, and being there for Her desires in this realm is just another proof that Mistress Katya is the most perfect Mistress i could ever ask for, and She has captured me completely.  i am Hers, in every way :)