Every day this journey brings a little surprise.  This weekend, i did a shoot on Sunday for an indie film a friend is making.  i was playing the role of a doctor, in full surgical getup.  This included latex gloves - my first experience with wearing any kind of latex.  i totally understand now why Mistress Katya loves it so much!  The sensations are hard to describe, but suffice to say it was a totally pleasurable experience!

i'm also progressing with my anal training.  i'm only using the largest plug Mistress gave me now, and i'm using it for at least an hour each day.

The thought came into my head this morning that Mistress Katya is turning me into quite Her little slut - i'm enjoying Her chastity control of me, i'm finding the anal training is becoming a pleasurable experience, and i'm coming to crave Her canes and whips.  i wear panties and stockings every day at Her request and i love it!  Honestly, i'm loving being trained and transformed into Mistress Katya's perfect ideal of a slave.  The deeper i go into this journey, the more i realize that giving complete control to a wonderful Mistress is exactly what i've wanted for so very long.  It was what was missing from my life.  Mistress Katya having such powerful and pervasive control over so many aspects of me and my life is so far beyond the cookie-cutter "sessions" i'd encountered in my previous experiences in BDSM, and it's so much more intense and meaningful.  To really be Hers, to know that She owns me and controls me, to have reminders of Her control every day (every hour, really!) throughout the day, even when i'm doing the most basic, pedestrian things, is a mind-blowing experience.

Each experience makes me want the transformation even more.  i want to be the slave that Mistress Katya can use in any way that pleases Her.  If She needs to beat someone, i will be Her target.  If She needs service, i will serve Her.  If She needs anything in the world, i will be there for Her.  i don't say things like this lightly, and it takes quite a bit for someone to affect me in the way Mistress Katya has.  But She has, and it has been, and continues to be, the best journey i've ever been on.  i adore my Mistress and Owner, and will do everything in my power to please Her, be pleasing to Her, contribute to Her happiness, and continually show Her how grateful i am for Her.