Mistress Katya continues to amaze me, all the time.  Last night we met, and She showed me the new Hello Kitty cane She had made and intended on using on me.  As far as pain goes, the cane is probably one of my most feared implements.  i can't say why, but for me it hurts more than just about anything else.  It gives Mistress much joy to use it, though, and that is reason enough for me to endure anything She inflicts on me.

Mistress also had me massage Her feet and polish Her latex outfit (both of which are almost staples of our meetings at this point - and both of which i think are mutually enjoyable for Mistress and me).

Then, she informed me that She was going to introduce me to fire and wax play.  Now, i will admit, that i was a bit apprehensive about wax, as the last time i had made a foray into "the scene" a few years ago, i had a bad experience in wax play with an inexperienced Mistress, which left me with second-degree burns on my lower back.  Everything healed and there is no permanent damage, other than some discoloration of the skin, which at this point will likely be permanent.  So, i was a bit nervous about wax.

However, Mistress Katya, being as awesome and wonderful as She is, knew how to put me at ease, even before i had told Her of my previous bad experience.  It's further confirmation (not that i needed any) that i have not made a mistake by having absolute trust in Her.  i know it's going to sound odd, but She makes me feel safe and cared for, even when She's abusing me - it's quite a talent, and one i've not come across before.  She really is something special.

Once Mistress was done with that, She bound me on the bed for a caning with the new HK cane, and also to use one of Her whips on me (it's the second time She's used that whip, and i'm still not sure what the proper name for it is).  It was painful, but i have come to want Mistress' corporal punishment, and i KNOW that She enjoys it.  A big smile comes over Her face, Her eyes light up, and one can hear it in Her voice - She's really into it, and it means a lot that i can give Her something in my submission that She enjoys so much.

Then it came to the big question of the night.  Was i to release, or was i to go back into chastity without a release?  Mistress lay down next to me on the bed, and whispering in my ear, said that She was going to reward me...and that reward meant going back into chastity without release.

That may sound counterintuitive - but i have come to learn from personal experience that NOT having a release is actually more merciful than having one.  When in chastity, if you are granted a release and then put back into chastity, what happens is that your body thinks "hey, that whole thing is over!", and it takes at least a week for the subconscious to realize that no, the chastity is still there.  During that week, all the straining, all the sleeplessness, and all the dreams are back with a vengeance.  So, once you've started chastity, it really is more merciful to be denied a release.

Afterwards, we chatted a bit.  i have to say, Mistress Katya is just as amazing as a person as She is as a Mistress, and i would walk through fire for Her.