Didn't sleep well again last night. The last week or so has been very fitful sleep, waking up 3-4 times during each night. Last night it was only tangentially related to my chastity. i still love that every waking moment i have a reminder of who i belong to and who has ultimate power and control over me.

Even though the tossing and turning last night wasn't really caused by chastity, i still woke up with my nipples so sensitive and so hard they could cut glass - which of course meant that even the slightest brush of anything, even the bedsheet, against them set off a chain reaction which made Mistress Katya's cock (see, i got it right that time because She owns it, not me) to grow the little bit that it can inside its prison and try to break free. Once again it was thwarted by the device, and i was actually grateful for that. Mistress Katya is teaching me to appreciate my orgasms more, and i fear that if i had been free this morning, i wouldn't have had the willpower to resist and i would have wasted a precious orgasm.

She is also teaching me that any orgasm i am allowed is not for my pleasure but for Hers. i'm finally starting to really understand that deep down in my core. The true understanding and acceptance of that is really amazing. Yet another thing i have to be eternally grateful to Mistress Katya for.

As i go deeper and deeper down this rabbit hole, further along this journey, the more and more grateful i become to have a Mistress, Owner, and Teacher who is so wise and who knows why i am here and how to guide me.

Thank You always, my wonderful, amazing Mistress.