Good Lord.  It's only been 9 days and it's starting a little again.  Last night i was definitely feeling it a little.  Not anywhere near the unbearableness (is that even a word?) of the week leading up to the last session, but just starting to be there in the back of my mind.  Right now, i'd say about a 3 on a 1-10 scale (for reference, the by the week leading up to the last session with Mistress Katya it was probably a 9.  i'm tempted to say 12 because it was so intense but that would be a bit of an exaggeration - but it was very very close to the point where i'd go crazy).

Last time was almost 5 weeks in chastity without a release, and it took about 4 weeks of that to build up to the frenzy point.  i was pretty good for the first 6 or 7 days this time, but in the last 2 days i've noticed it just beginning to build, sort of like a low humming in the background (i know i don't describe it well).

my goal is to get better and better at handling it so that i may please Mistress Katya more and more, and also because i know (and She has stated) that more discipline and control make me a better slave and a better person.  She really is teaching me so much about myself and She really is helping me to become a better, more disciplined person.  There is so much more to the mental and emotional side of true training as Mistress is leading me through than i ever thought.  It's pretty amazing and i will thank Her each and every day for it.