For the first time since my last release, i woke up today straining against my chastity device. This was mainly due to a very vivid dream i had of Mistress putting me in strict bondage, blindfolding and gagging me, and then teasing and tormenting my nipples for what seemed like hours.

Blindfolding me is one of the cruelest torments Mistress Katya imposes on me. She is so stunningly gorgeous that it is really torment to know that She is there but i cannot see Her. It also deprives me of the ability to see the smile and glow that come across Her face when She is enjoying Her power over me and the torments She chooses to make me endure. i know it's selfish but i really do enjoy seeing Her light up like that.

Anyway, back to this morning. Woke up straining and realized - i love that i no longer control my own body. i love that Mistress Katya is my Owner, my trainer, and my tormenter, 24/7. Yes, it's intense. Yes, it's almost unbearable at times. Yes, i walk around with a constant reminder of Mistress Katya locked on to me and it makes me think of Her all the time.

And yes, i love it all. It's what i've needed for so long and i never knew it. But Mistress, in Her infinite wisdom and Her ability to read me body mind and soul like an open book, knew it. My incredible, intuitive, sadistic, and at times almost telepathic Mistress knew it was exactly what i needed.

Thank You, Mistress Katya. My devotion to You grows each day, with each new realization and each new experience. You have already taught me so much about myself and You continue to do so. Thank You from the depths of my heart for taking me on this wonderful journey.

And even for the canings :)