So much for getting to sleep early. A final thought for the evening:

As i lay here, i am in many ways no longer what i was a short 4 months ago. i lay here, in frilly panties and stockings, locked into a chastity device for which i do not have a key, and with a butt plug up my ass. i would have been scared, nervous, and embarrassed about all of those things before i was taken into training by Mistress Katya.

Now, as i lay here experiencing all those things at once, i know this - i am not afraid. Of these things or any way that Mistress wishes me to serve Her or anything She wishes me to endure. i may be apprehensive, but never afraid. i want to please Her, more than anyhing. i want to see the pleasure in Her face and hear it in Her voice as She sees and knows just how much power and control She has over me. And the best part is that with chastity, She has that control 24/7/365, even when we are not physically together. THAT'S powerful stuff and i love it.