As i suspected, i am so wound up about tonight that i am useless for anything else today.  i told my office that i wasn't feeling well and would be taking things easy today (i work from home most days so they can't see the state i'm really in!).  i'm not really able to concentrate on anything (i've lost count already of the number of times i've had to backspace and correct spelling errors while typing this very post) and thoughts of Mistress Katya are pushing all other thoughts out of my head.  It's less than 5 hours now until O/our scheduled meeting time and it feels more and more like i'm going to be completely unable to do anything else by then.  i ache to be at Mistress' feet, serve Her, and be tormented by Her.  It is my place.