Aaaargh!

Warning:  there's only going to be one lucid, intelligent part of this posting.  i'll let you know when it's coming.

It's official - i'm going a bit nuts.  My body WANTS an erection and an orgasm and WANTS IT BADLY.  i think it wants an erection even more than it wants an orgasm, but i'm not sure.  All i know for sure is that my Mistress' cock (i must refer to it that way because it belongs to Her, no longer to me) wants to be hard.  It wants it so badly.  It's driving me to distraction the last 2 days.  Help!

OK, here's the lucid, intelligent part:  Even though i'm going nuts, i have not melted the ice cube and used the key, for the following reasons:

1.  Doing so would, i'm sure, cause a severe punishment from Mistress Katya.
2.  Doing so would, i'm sure, disappoint Mistress Katya.

i would be willing to accept any punishment from Mistress.  After all, i am Hers to do with as She wishes.  But it would simply kill me to see disappointment in Her eyes, or hear disappointment in Her voice.  It would devastate me.  Mistress is amazing beyond words, and i simply cannot bring myself to disappoint Her, no matter what that means for me.  Pain, frustration, inability to concentrate on daily tasks, embarrassment - i would suffer all of that and more to avoid disappointing a truly wonderful Mistress who has accepted me as Her slave for Her service and training.