Tonight was the most amazing night i can remember.
After Mistress had postponed O/our meeting from last night to tonight, i was finally going to see Her. The anticipation had built up to such a level that i had to stop working early this afternoon...i couldn't concentrate on anything. i arrived at the hotel, and called Mistress Katya with the room number.
When She arrived, Mistress was even more beautiful than i remembered (i hadn't thought that was possible). We exchanged a few pleasantries, and then Mistress went to change and ordered me to undress and stand facing the corner. Mistress came back, wearing an amazingly gorgeous latex dress. She announced that tonight was to be about sensory deprivation and overload.
She had me sit on the floor at Her feet, and massage Her feet and legs, which is always an amazing experience. She began to tease me, playing with my nipples and using Her foot to play with my chastity device.
i don't want to make this into a play-by-play of O/our session, but i'm going to try to hit the hot spots.
After using the cane on me for a little bit (which i am embarrassed to say that i did not take as well as i should have), Mistress mummified me in saran wrap, and pushed me back onto the bed. She put a blindfold on me, and put a ball gag in my mouth. She cut out holes in the saran wrap so She had access to my nipples, and also to Her (because it's Hers, not my) cock. She began to play with my nipples, and i could feel Her body next to mine. She whispered in my ear, and i was in heaven.
After teasing and torture for what seemed like days, Mistress lay down next to me and began to whisper in my ear again. She began to talk about Her decision as to whether or not i was going to be granted a release.
Mistress kept me on the edge for a long time, telling me about Her thoughts and Her decision process...finally She said "No..."
i wasn't to have a release. She wanted to control me even more, and for me to know that i was Hers. She said She wanted me to get so frustrated and pent up that i would be begging Her for release. Not in email, not here on my journal, but She wanted me to get so frustrated that i have to call Her on the phone to beg.
When She was whispering these things in my ear, my mind was going a million miles an hour. Was this what i wanted? Was i really prepared to truly give up control of my life to this level? A chill ran down my spine as i realized that the answer to these questions was yes. Most definitely yes. Unequivocably yes. When Mistress removed the blindfold, looked in my eyes, and asked me if i was ready for that commitment, there was nothing in the universe that could make me say no. Looking deep into Mistress' eyes, i almost cried tears of joy when i said yes.
After locking me back into my chastity device, it was time for the ultimate act of control. Mistress had told me to get a locking key holder with a resettable combination. One last time, she asked me if i was ready to be Hers for good and to make this commitment. Of course, i said yes. There was nothing i wanted more. Mistress took the second key (the first is on Her keyring), and locked it into the key holder. She had already reset the combination, so although i have the key holder, i do not have the combination. (in the event of an emergency, i can ask Mistress for the combination)
i was flying the whole time. As i listened to Mistress saying that it may be weeks or months until She allows me to have a release - or that She may never again let me have an orgasm - i knew in my heart that i would do anything for Her. The emotions almost overcame me. Reliving the experience as i write this, i have a lump in my throat and i know that i have found the Mistress who means the world to me, and for whom i would walk through fire. i'd sessioned with Mistresses before, and i had almost given up hope that a deeper, more meaningful relationship than the standard cookie-cutter session was possible.
i couldn't have been more wrong. Mistress Katya proves to me every single day that there is so much more. i adore Her, and will be Her humble, devoted, and grateful slave for as long as She will have me. i am Hers, to be used at Her discretion for Her pleasure and Her amusement. As i sit here on my bed writing these words, and with my eyes welling up with tears...the emotions are so strong...all i can say is...
Thank You, my wonderful Mistress Katya. Thank You for everything.
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