Just now, for the first time, the thought entered my head - i'm locked up, don't have the key, and don't know when Mistress Katya may allow me to have another release.  It could be weeks, months, or longer if She wants it.  i know i'd been locked up for 4 weeks prior to my last release, but this is the first time it really hit me that it could be a very long time.  In fact, Mistress is stating that it will be.  The thought is sobering, exciting, and a little scary, all at the same time...but knowing that i have an Owner who cares about me is very, very cool and makes me feel very safe and secure.