The anticipation is building...Mistress and i are meeting tonight, and i'm already not sure how i'm going to make it through the next 8 hours.  i'm also nervous about what Mistress may have planned, as She has stated "I am not going to make it easy on you whatsoever." - that has me nervous.  Not worried, mind you...i trust Mistress Katya completely and i know that whatever She has planned is for Her pleasure and for my own training.  Nonetheless, i'm nervous.  i know i've disappointed Her, and the fear of losing Her is intense.